"So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
Till our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone" - Ed Sheeran, Photograph
Saturday, May 16, 2015
Photograph
"So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
Till our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone" - Ed Sheeran, Photograph
Friday, April 17, 2015
Spring is here!
Spring nails for tmr!!! Can't wait, D-1 till what I'm so excited for and D-11 to something that I've somewhat been dreading for awhile. #diy #nails #nailart #spring #flowers πΈπ
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Saturday, March 14, 2015
Departure
The past week has been a whirlwind of emotions. It's been filled with sadness to say the least, as well as comfort.
Attended a funeral of my relative just last Friday and Saturday. Here where I live, (there is a law I think that says) all who pass away have to be cremated, if I'm not wrong. So along with my parents, I went to attend the funeral and honestly a part of myself wondered why I had shed tears. As long as I can remember, I haven't met this relative of mine enough to even use my 10 fingers to count. But the wave of sadness just overwhelmed me as I took the last look at him during the funeral and as the coffin was being pushed into the incinerator. I cried out the tears that I've held back since Friday night where I met up with my cousins and my uncle, aunt and grandaunt, as I watched how my relatives mourned his death,be it distant or close. The fact that he's just gone like that made me realise how fragile life can be.
I've been fortunate enough in the last 20 odd years of my life that I've never needed to experience such loss and pain from my immediate family. So you could say this is the first time I've had to attend a funeral of a loved one. The feelings I've felt throughout were just foreign and I couldn't even bring myself to say words of condolences to his family, because to me, no matter what others say, nothing can help reduce the pain felt by those left behind. Nothing said would ever make them feel better for that matter. They can only just stay strong for those who care and hope to move on as soon as possible. But in actual fact, the pain would still be there and in future, even an ordinary object such as a cup/bed can trigger the mere memory of the person and all the emotions would be riled up again.
After the funeral, I attended a friend's 21st birthday party (I know, the emotions were stretched to the maximum ends that day) and I watched as my friend celebrated life and thanked her family for making the party happen and for doting on her all these years.
Sometimes I wonder to myself too, would it be better to not feel anything then, if pain is such a suffering that I wouldn't wish on anyone? It dawned on me, the happy memories, those that everyone should experience on a day to day basis, those would ultimately outweigh the bad, right? Then it would be more worth it to feel than to not, during this short few decades of our insignificant lives, wouldn't you agree?
A small part of me misses him, wishing he was still here so my dear cousins don't have to experience the pain that they're probably still feeling but hiding from everyone behind their own facade of smiles and "I'm fine, thank you."s But there's another part of me that wishes that we could celebrate his life, the fact that he has spent 90 over glorious years on this Earth and that he had left peacefully, without and struggles physically. He will be missed dearly and I'm praying for him that he will be safe and at peace wherever he may be right now (If a parallel universe exists and he's there enjoying himself).
Back at work, the mood swings of the supervisor continue to blossom and thrive as I continue to be on the receiving end of her emotional roller coaster. However, the transfer that I've requested seems to finally be taking place soon as the supervisor has finally allowed me to submit my request and HR has scheduled my interview for next Tuesday. Feeling nervous though, not knowing what is going to happen. Hopefully only good things are to come, as I join this "new" department, with a vastly different workload but of equal if not more importance, which means I cannot afford to slack off right now. The colleagues have been more than encouraging and welcoming so I'm actually looking forward to a better change after the transfer as much as I would miss the rest of the dept, especially people like W, K and ZQ.
Tita has also left for her homeland for the next one week, which I'm rather upset about but I can't be selfish to hold her back just cos it's gonna be inconvenient for me and the family without her around. I know she misses her family badly so I have to bear with it for the next couple of days till she's back next week.:(
Lots to do now so till next time. Toodles! :D
Attended a funeral of my relative just last Friday and Saturday. Here where I live, (there is a law I think that says) all who pass away have to be cremated, if I'm not wrong. So along with my parents, I went to attend the funeral and honestly a part of myself wondered why I had shed tears. As long as I can remember, I haven't met this relative of mine enough to even use my 10 fingers to count. But the wave of sadness just overwhelmed me as I took the last look at him during the funeral and as the coffin was being pushed into the incinerator. I cried out the tears that I've held back since Friday night where I met up with my cousins and my uncle, aunt and grandaunt, as I watched how my relatives mourned his death,be it distant or close. The fact that he's just gone like that made me realise how fragile life can be.
I've been fortunate enough in the last 20 odd years of my life that I've never needed to experience such loss and pain from my immediate family. So you could say this is the first time I've had to attend a funeral of a loved one. The feelings I've felt throughout were just foreign and I couldn't even bring myself to say words of condolences to his family, because to me, no matter what others say, nothing can help reduce the pain felt by those left behind. Nothing said would ever make them feel better for that matter. They can only just stay strong for those who care and hope to move on as soon as possible. But in actual fact, the pain would still be there and in future, even an ordinary object such as a cup/bed can trigger the mere memory of the person and all the emotions would be riled up again.
After the funeral, I attended a friend's 21st birthday party (I know, the emotions were stretched to the maximum ends that day) and I watched as my friend celebrated life and thanked her family for making the party happen and for doting on her all these years.
Sometimes I wonder to myself too, would it be better to not feel anything then, if pain is such a suffering that I wouldn't wish on anyone? It dawned on me, the happy memories, those that everyone should experience on a day to day basis, those would ultimately outweigh the bad, right? Then it would be more worth it to feel than to not, during this short few decades of our insignificant lives, wouldn't you agree?
A small part of me misses him, wishing he was still here so my dear cousins don't have to experience the pain that they're probably still feeling but hiding from everyone behind their own facade of smiles and "I'm fine, thank you."s But there's another part of me that wishes that we could celebrate his life, the fact that he has spent 90 over glorious years on this Earth and that he had left peacefully, without and struggles physically. He will be missed dearly and I'm praying for him that he will be safe and at peace wherever he may be right now (If a parallel universe exists and he's there enjoying himself).
Back at work, the mood swings of the supervisor continue to blossom and thrive as I continue to be on the receiving end of her emotional roller coaster. However, the transfer that I've requested seems to finally be taking place soon as the supervisor has finally allowed me to submit my request and HR has scheduled my interview for next Tuesday. Feeling nervous though, not knowing what is going to happen. Hopefully only good things are to come, as I join this "new" department, with a vastly different workload but of equal if not more importance, which means I cannot afford to slack off right now. The colleagues have been more than encouraging and welcoming so I'm actually looking forward to a better change after the transfer as much as I would miss the rest of the dept, especially people like W, K and ZQ.
Tita has also left for her homeland for the next one week, which I'm rather upset about but I can't be selfish to hold her back just cos it's gonna be inconvenient for me and the family without her around. I know she misses her family badly so I have to bear with it for the next couple of days till she's back next week.:(
Lots to do now so till next time. Toodles! :D
Monday, March 9, 2015
μμΌμΆνν΄μ νμ°μΈλ
For those people who know me well, you'd know that my fave genre of music would be ballads and the singer would be the people with the most soulful voices, such as the above wonderful lady. She has one of the best voices that I've ever heard and honestly fell in love with since the very first time I heard her. She shows so much passion and love for what she does best: singing, which makes me doubt myself sometimes that maybe I should pursue what I love instead of what I'm doing now, just doing a job for the sake of a job. Today is your birthday so I just want to say thank you for being such an inspiration to your fans and of course a very happy birthday μμΌμΆνν΄μ νμ°μΈλ!πππ and be continue to be the dorky and awesome baby faced leader of μμ! And if by any chance you get to see this @taeyeon_ss I'll be so overjoyedπππ #lettertoTY #309 #happybirthdayTY #notproficientenoughinkoreantotypeeverything #catchGG
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
New Year's Look
Amber and Pink Gradient Leopard Print nails for the new year! π
#nails #nailart #amber #pink #gradient #leopardprint #diy
Sunday, February 1, 2015
ηΎπ
It's that time of year again.ππππππππ
#cny2015 #chinatown #买年货 #1stFeb
Monday, January 19, 2015
Destress
All the stress at work piling up so I had to vent it somewhere. Simple floral patterns with a nude background #nails #nailart #floral #black #essie #rockcandy #nudepink #diy
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